You ever wake up and then suddenly realise that maybe you are not living your life to the fullest?
That maybe you could have done certain things differently, maybe loved a little more, maybe lived a little more?
Well, that’s what time does to you I guess.
You forget who you were, what you wanted to do and how you wanted to live.
And the saddest part is that the only time we realise that we haven’t lived our life to its fullest is the time when we know that death is evident and not much time is left.
Having said that, even I would be one of those people who realises its too late to change my life, if I had one week to live.
But I guess there are some things that I would do a little differently.
That one week would be the time when I would actually live for myself.
Do things that I have never done before, live like every day is the last opportunity to see a new day, a new sunrise, a new beginning.
Reflecting on the life that I have lived, there will be so many things left to do before I bid my farewell.
Like apologizing to people I have hurt before, thanking people who have stood by me like pillars, feeling grateful for the friends that I made, to the memories we shared.
However, one thing I would love to do any day, is leaving for a place where I have never been, find a place where solitude is your best friend and spend the rest of my day with myself.
Basically, I want to disappear but given how annoyingly amazing my friends are, I don’t think they let me do this alone.
But yes I do crave for some alone time.
I do see myself, going to an isolated mountain where you find more animals than humans, where you connect with the nature and with your soul, breathe the air like you never breathed before.
A place where you can be who you are, without the need to impress anyone, you are free to be yourself without the fear of being judged, where you live a little more.
Isn’t it sad that though we say we have everything we want and this is a life we dreamed to have, we feel the need to escape our lives, to escape reality?
It is said that no matter how old you are, no matter what situations you face, no matter how mature life has made you, there is a child inside you that just wants to be set free.
But it is our saddest truth that we never let that child out and ultimately it is we who suffocate ourselves.
The thought that crosses my mind every single day is this, why not live every day like it might be your last?
Why worry about things and let yourself suffer?
Why at least try to find something good in everything?
No matter how bad your day has been, the pains and the struggle that you have been through, the hurt that you have endured, we can somehow try to look at it in a positive way, can’t we?
If I really have only a week to live, I may or may not anything that I said before but there is one thing I would tell every person that I meet-
Live, be alive for once, be there for yourself.
We might not die tomorrow but at least we would’ve lived today.
And even if we don’t wake up tomorrow, we won’t have any regrets.
-Written by Shrunga(Student)